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I had my first of three finals yesterday morning. As expected, due to insufficient study, I'll probably get a B. Hopefully, I'll still get an A in the course. I have two more finals, one today, and one tomorrow. This is creating quite a bit of stress, mostly because I'm procrastinating on the studying. Procrastination is my knee-jerk response to stress, and then it creates more stress, which makes me want to leave the city until this dies down (procrastinate more). Ah, the never-ending cycle of it all.
I've actually circumvented this problem before, but that was when I had one final, not three in a row. At least my path is set, now. No matter how hard I try, I only have one day to study for my last final. Also, I'm comforted by the fact that all I have to get is an 80% to continue my B average in that class (what? I'm used to aiming high, like A or nothing).
And just to add one last little bit of nervousness and uncertainty to my day, I had my jury this morning, and now I need to go back to play a duet that was just scheduled this morning. It's all working out, thank goodness.
By the way, I was rather amazing this morning. It seems that the more nervous I am, the better I play. Practicing thoroughly and having a 'test' performance also helps.
So off I go, the inevitability makes for a certain kind of peace.
Greeny
I've actually circumvented this problem before, but that was when I had one final, not three in a row. At least my path is set, now. No matter how hard I try, I only have one day to study for my last final. Also, I'm comforted by the fact that all I have to get is an 80% to continue my B average in that class (what? I'm used to aiming high, like A or nothing).
And just to add one last little bit of nervousness and uncertainty to my day, I had my jury this morning, and now I need to go back to play a duet that was just scheduled this morning. It's all working out, thank goodness.
By the way, I was rather amazing this morning. It seems that the more nervous I am, the better I play. Practicing thoroughly and having a 'test' performance also helps.
So off I go, the inevitability makes for a certain kind of peace.
Greeny
